So another update about my life in case anyone out there is actually reading my blog. I got a new job as an instructional aide for children with Autism. It is so amazing and changing my life. I love my kids so much already and it just makes it even better that I get paid to spend time with them. It is a very humbling job that teaches me so much that I can apply to my own life. Jon and I are stronger than ever. I’ve never wanted to work at something so much in my life. Not that it’s a difficult relationship but I’m growing up with him, becoming an adult trying tadapt to all llhe new changes in my life and he is so amazing!! I’m so glad everything that has happened this far in my life has happened and I was able to grow from it. He’s my BestFriend and we are going to get married and start our family within the next couple years and I really can’t wait. Growing up my dad wasn’t the best father figure, nor my mother. I could never understand how I could find a man that I trusted so much to have a kid with (I wanted to be a single mother) but Jon changed that. I can trust him fullheartedly and no one has ever given me that. That means more to me than anyone can know. He makes me laugh all the time and picks me up when I’m being negative. I’m so glad we met when we did cause if I would’ve take. The chance to get to know him in high s hill we probably wouldn’t be together, I was in such a different mind frame back then, I was so young. Lol Becca and I have gotten really close again, were on the same page in our lives. She helps me a lot too giving me advice and visa versa. She’s about to pop and I can’t wait! She’s gonna be such a good mom and it’s exciting seeing her and Alex transition into parenthood! Cindy’s leaving me in a month :( idk what I’m gonna do I just gotta keep myself busy so I don’t think about it and get depressed. She’s my rock and other half. But I’m really excited for her to go out and live on her own with Berto I think it will be a really good experience for her and she’ll really grow up as well. She always had us (me) right there to do everything for her so I know it will be a transition but I think she will be able to adapt, I’ve been kinda preparing her for this without her knowing, I’ve been pulling back and having her do things on her own. Not saying that she doesn’t so anything on her own obviously she’s been working since she was 16. Whelp I’m done now I’m sure this is way too long for anyone to read lol later tumblr!
Khaleesi
The greatest problem in the world today is intolerance. Everyone is so intolerant of each other..
Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet
Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can’t help them, at least don’t hurt them.
Dalai Lama XIV (via littlemiss)
(via withperplexities)
(via jadeeeann)
Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else. But just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes.
Amy Plum, Die for Me
Update!
So, I’m living with Jon! A little over a month now and its amazing! Definitely glad I’m going through this experience with him. I am really recognizing how much of not only a lover but a best friend he is. He is such a great man and I feel so blessed. I sound so sappy lol but its true and our anniversary is coming up next week! Its crazy cause it feels like it went by so fast and i am still so interested and intrigued by him. I think were going to be together for a long time. In other news im going to go to the university of phoenix and get my bachelors in psychology then hopefully graduate school. I am just so tired of waiting around and going semester after semester not going any further. So thats my life as of now.
